Even the best fall down at times!
But Arsenal always will prevail!
Hail Arsenal!

And i hope Ramsey's injury doesnt affect the squad.
But it's quite sad though. =(
Ramsey, recover soon and never lose hope!

Long live ARSENAL!!!!!!!!!!

I shall summarize today,
With simplified words!

Tired.
Exhausted.
Worn Out.
Stressful.
Weak.
Angry.
Aggravated!
Unsatisfied!
Puzzled.
Humorous!
WHAT THE HELL!

Okay basically today was okay.
But one particular situation,
RUINED MY MOOD!
Niceeee one ahhh makcik,
Laen kali sila buat lagi, ok?

Urgh. Fcuk that shit!
Karma. =D

ARDINI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Where are you?
Huhuhu.
I miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuu laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Bored bored bored BORED.

=/

Labels: gundubaby

I was so tensed up in school today.
Basically i wanted to give up.
Now i still feel like it too.

Whats the use of holding on till the end,
When you know in the end you're gonna fall?
This is so not me.
I am the type of person who never ever gives up.
I don't know what happened to myself.
Maybe it's just the pressure.
This was what happened during O's.
I always screw up in the end.
Ohh god please, i do not wish history to repeat itself once again.

So. I have to get some rest.
I have to reach school by 8am.
And by then i will have to work my ass off to finish everything.
Hmmm, i did it once, and i'm going to do it again.
I shall entrust myself more!
Let's go Fate!

I woke up today.
Feeling rather weird.
I hesitated to go to school.
And eventually, i didn't.
Sometimes i just feel like i'm good for nothing.
Or have i just lost hope and faith?
I am a complete failure.
In every journey that i make.
I shall bear the consequences for every wrong move i make.

So we had a crew meeting just now.
Regarding some personal chaos?
I am glad to see that everythings fine now.
Though i admit that it takes time for things to be normal again.

And i'd like to say farewell to Doubledee.
In 2 days he will serve the country!
All the best bro.
We will all miss your presence.
Must come out a better man ayte!
Must be thin too! Haha!
SEDIA!
Practice your push ups bro.
"One sir! Two sir! Three sir!"

Labels: i miss my applepie very much

When I was a kid, I've always wanted to be a Winner in Life.

Whoa, my eyes are dried up.
I need eyemo!

So, nothing much today.
Basically crapped in school.
Took tons of pictures. Nonsensical ones.

I had a good talk with Fluffy today.
He did got me snapped back to reality.
Thanks bro.
I needed all that.
Words are a powerful weapon.
Should it fall down to an irresponsible person,
The phrase "a man of my word"
Will eventually mean nothing.

I really need to buck myself up.
Just 2 more weeks.
And i'm done with school.
Come on Fate.
I'm constantly reminding myself but at times,
I find myself forgetting.
I have to push myself to the limit.
I have got loads to do and i'm now wondering if i can finish em. =/
I seem to have lost a bit of confidence.
Lost self esteem.
And, i find myself far away from my own quote,
Which is, "Never give up, but always give in"

Plus i don't know why,
But i'm foreseeing bad things coming my way.
Please, i know that i have been facing negativity throughout this life of mine.
But for once, at least give me more time with my happiness.
I know that ive been happy no matter what,
But that doesnt mean i have to be brought down yet again. =(
I can't help it...

Baby, i hope to meet you soon.
Cause i would love it if i could talk with you.
And and of course,
I miss you sooooooooo..............

Labels: i'm holding on cause i feel it in the air tonight

Meet my new friend.
Her name is Armpit. Haha!

Okay so this week will be so called the hardcore week of school.
I have to complete all the projects and groupworks by this week.
So i have to god damn discipline myself.
Wake up Fate! Gosh.
Ive gotta play smart and wise. So yeap!
I got my own way with things. ;)

And and. Im like, so called gonna be free soon!
Woohoo!
But not yet. Sighs.

Negative thinking and feelings,
Please go away.
Don't worry Fate, everything will be alright.
Just smile.
I hope. =/

Labels: miracle cure please

Sometimes.
You know. Just by having what you have,
Many will go against and protest it.
And sometimes. You just wonder and think,
Why?
And when you, relax yourself and as your mind twirls itself,
You just feel that your emotions are twirled as well.
I don't know what's wrong. I don't know why.
But i just feel moody now.
Nevermind, heads up, i enjoyed my day today with them.
Keep your head up guys, remember my advice.
Pictures up soon.

Labels: you bleed just to know that you're well and alive

Why does time have to fly so fast?
Sighs.
How i wish i could have the power to freeze time.
So that i can run around happily with my baby. =D

Nothing much happened today.

I hurt my right side of my butt.
PAIN! Haha.
But it's funny how it suddenly hurts.
I don't know what happened.

Access test tmr.
*prays hard*

Baby, next week uhh? Hmph. =/

Labels: ITALY =D

Hi! My name's Fatapulazionistafintasticnix.
I am an alien from outer space.
I live in a planet called beeboobopboyroboelectronica.
Over there, we communicate by movements.
Dancing to be exact.
We eat music. And we drink melodrama.
Okay WTH this is crap haha.
Bored............

So access test will be on this friday.
Which is tomorrow! Cause now its already thursday.
Its like, 2 am now.
And i have to like, be in school by 8am later.
How am i supposed to sleep?
I cant.

Still nocturnal abit.
Though i admit that ive been getting sufficient sleep at certain nights. =D

Went down to TJCC after school.
Around like 6?
First thing i came down i searched for me babyyyyy of course.
Didnt see her at first, thought she didnt come!
Then when i searched behind the stairs, she was there.
Somebody merajuk with me uhh?
Hehe.
Aiyoooo, next time i wont come late laaa okay baby. =D
Gahhh, got to spend time with you for a while only. Hmph.
Wish to meet you soon pleaseeee =/
Ahhhhhh!

I MISS AND LOVE YOU OKAY!

Labels: madam baby apple hehe

So today went like any other day.
I woke up late, around, like, 1 plus? Haha.
I was awakened by Fluffy's call btw.
He said that he and Biah wanted to chill at my house before going for prac.
So yeap. I waited for them.
Then Elborne called me up and said he wanna come too cause he's bored.

So we all chilled, talked(Gossip) Haha.
Ate alot, watched random funny videos.
Then we went down to TJCC.
Nothin much happened during practice.
The usual.

So here i am back home, and its 1.45am right now.
I should be sleeping!
If not i will be late for school tmr, or will never make it! Haha.

Today's wednesday! I cant wait to see her today.
That is if shes coming. I dont know. =/
Ahhhhhh. I miss you, do you know that?
And its been quite sometime since i felt these kinda feelings.
And and im angry with you! Since when did you have a driving license??
Why didnt you tell me? Cause here you are.....
You're driving me crazy. ;)
Okay im getting soooo ridiculous. Hahahaha. =D
Here's a little somethin for you baby.


"The first time my heart was broken,
I thought I was through.
I swore I'd never love again,
Until I found you.

You are the one who makes me complete,
The one I think about everyday.
Everytime I'm near you,
I start falling in more than one way.

You may not know this,
But you've always had my heart.
I just wanted you to know,
That I've loved you from the start.

You make my heart beat faster,
With every breath I take.
I know I'm in love with you,
Trust me, this is not fake.

The first time I fell in love,
She ripped my heart in two.
Forgive me if I seem scared,
I just don't want to lose you.

The first time my heart was broken,
I thought I was through.
I swore I'd never love again,
Until I found you... "

Labels: For you my heart

Love, knows one boundary.
The heart.
It incapsulates it with warmth, care and joy.

Knowing this boundary is tough.
You dont go around finding, it will find you.
That is the true meaning of "Knowing"
Knowing that its out there,
Somewhere.
Within reach, or far from being touched.

That is the most intense and best feeling of love.
Knowing that her presence lingers around like an aroma,
But she is nowhere to be found.
Its like, shes invisible and staring at every move that you make.

Where are you?
Just where are you.

At times you wonder.
If you are ever going to find her.
That is why when you are feeling lonely, doesnt mean you're desperate!
It simply means that you're taking your time to figure out a route.
A route to your destination.

And as time passes by,
She will start to fuse in the midst of nothingness.
And out of nowhere, she appears,
Unknown, the presence is strong,
You feel her being there.

And as you set your eyes on her for the first time,
You realized,
That all this while,

She's been in your heart all along..

"14th February 2010"
Eden's Eros. =)

Labels: i love and miss you A. =/

"I can't look you in the eyes I'm afraid that you will see.
The yearning I feel inside for what I know could never
be.

I try to fight the feelings and what I long to say.
But every time it gets harder to just let you walk away.

If only you knew the truth hidden beneath the lies.
If only you could hear every time that my heart cries.

How can something that feels so right ever be so wrong.
When will the wanting stop it seems I've wanted you for
so long.

God, but your beautiful and oh how I yearn for just your touch.
Never could there ever be someone who longs for you so much.

But what I feel for you must stay hidden deep within.
For I could never fight for a love I know I cannot win.

So I'll silently keep wishing for what I know could never
be.
And yearning for you but yet hoping you won't see."

Labels: underneath it all

Whole body's weak.
Cramp.
Whoa. Restless.
Exhausted.
All i need to do now is have a deep sleep.
Which i will after posting this post.

Well i would love to elaborate how today went,
But due to my laziness,
And at the same time willingness to share,
I shall not say anything at all.
Haha!
WTH.

Okay i would wanna complain that today was a god damn hot day lah.
I was cranky throughout.

Okay.
I am. On cloud 9?
Can i? Well i shouldnt be asking.
As i already am.
*winks*
:)

Labels: imya

Very very very, TIRED.
*Slaps own face very very hard*

Wake up Fate!
I need motivation.
What is wrong with me?
Ahhh.
I have no idea.

The finishing line is near! Very near!
Note to self: DONT SLACK!
Wake up wake up!

Yet to apply for Poly.
Tomorrow's the last day.
Must make up my mind!

And also yet to finish projects!
And assignments!

WAKE UP FATE!

Labels: imissyou

Im sooooo damnnn tired!
But yeah, got lots of self gain!

Ive lost tremendous weight!

Ive got new moves!

Ive got like, what else?
Haha okay i dont know.
This is officially a random post.

Hey... Hey! Hey! Hey. Ermmm, Hey! Hey! Hey!
Wanna hear a joke?
Hey! Hey Apple!
HEY!

So it has been 3 days straight that ive been sick.
And how i hate it.
I mean, who doesnt? Right?

So this week, im supposed to like apply for my Poly course.
Im not so sure what to apply for though.
My head's circling around somewhere else.
I need help, but i guess i'll apply it tomorrow in school.

You know what,
I have no idea what's wrong with me.
You know the feeling,
When you felt that a particular something is just missing.
Im feeling it now.
Whats happening? And why does this keep happening.

There is this girl
That has never been in my world
She has never seen me squeak
Or has even heard a peep
And She has never seen me cry

The only thing she's seen
Is me just walking by
Without a simple sign
But she stole my attention like criminal without an act
I think I've found a girl

Is that the biggest fact?
I know that love is far from being an act
But wanting to love is what's holding me back
Because she's never seen how I crack

She's never seen how broken pieces of my heart rack
She's never seen how I really am
She never will see
What is truly me .

Labels: valentine

Today marks a year you've been gone.
Today, marks the first tear i will cry on every February the 4th.
Today, will never make tomorrow come for me,
As that day, there was no more you for me.

You taught me everything. Values of life.
Necessities and what not to take in.
You have taught me what life is, you nurtured me from small.

You brought me up while at most times, i broke you down.
You held me up while at most times, i had to frown.

You taught me the meaning of a meaning.
You taught me to be reasonable in knowing what reason really means.

Your heart is pure. Like white light. Blinding every sin with your aura.

Your actions and your mind work simultaneously to produce good deeds.
WISE is what you are throughout your life.
People have tried to ruin what's yours, but no.
You TAUGHT me how to stand strong like how you did.
You, made me realize.
The importance of the meaning important.
How regretful the aftermath would be if all humans were to be ignorant.

I miss you dearly.
I miss the times when you fed me after school.
Miss the times you wiped my mouth if i were to drool.
Times when you story to me about past histories and things that could've be.
I miss the times when you ask me to pray if i were to laze around.
Every fridays, i miss your voice reminding me not to forget friday prayers.

Allah loves you. You had to go. You are the most wise and good person ever lived.
To me, you are the black diamond.
You knew you could shine, but you chose not to.
You chose to be HUMBLE.
And that is what i am, grandma, i am a humble person now.

February 4th. I was devastated. Everyone was.

I remembered kissing your forehead, i thought that you were asleep.
You felt different. You were cold.
The next thing i know, when i woke up to fulfill my subuh prayers,
Grandma, you already went away..

I realized that it's too late to apologize.
And I, couldn't forgive myself.
I am sincerely and dearly sorry, grandma.
May you still have your sweet vibrant smile that you always carry during your years,
Wherever you are, cause i know you are in peace...
Everyone loves and misses you...

Labels: Al-Fatihah

It is unpredictable.
The minute you feel close to your dreams,
Seconds tick as you first touch that visualization,

An hour it appears, as now,
You've found out that there is still more work needed to be done.
More miles to run, energy to waste.

Focus and concentration that is lacking,
What more can you do?
Not just a boost of determination, but also motivation that you must seek,
As you cannot work alone.
In life, it takes 2, 3, more, most, ALL.

But the only difference in working with all, is the success.
As each and every contribution, comes from each individual,
The success is undivided. You cannot distribute success.
As success comes from yourself.
Every bit that you strive, every action that you do.
It's all within you.

So don't be afraid to show the world what you can do or
What you are capable of doing.
You'll never know if you are the last contribution to this particular upcoming success,
And the next thing you know,
You've become a star, and everyone will live by your name..

Labels: she pass by

Like an echo reverberating off walls, and mountains my love is.
Traveling as fast as sound, my hungry voice spreads in all directions,
and bounces back calling your lovely name right now, right here
just to tell you about this sweet affection I carry, within, my dear.

I shout but it seems this sound can't catch your heart and ears.
Maybe something has absorbed my echo of love and passion.
Maybe your silent heart is miles away from mine,
and can't hear my soft voice calling you across my apparent sea.

Words pine away as reverberation decreases and dies again,
searching for your delicate strength, to ease my tender pain.

Labels: the midst beyond the falls

The sin that has always been,
Whats within,
Is whats always wrong, when it felt so right,
The feeling of darkness outshining light,
Out burst of inferno signs a massive desire,
Slowly it fades, light the candle fire,



Fire needs oxygen.
We need oxygen.
We need to breathe.
But I,

Need to find the reason to breathe...

Labels: Valentines day?