Friday, December 18, 2009
Hi , my name is Herrizal .
I was borned in the year 1991 on the 25th of october .
Back then i lived through a very blissful yet devastating childhood .
I was a hot tempered boy .
I was aggressive , big boy with the big fucked up attitude .
Greedy , violent , and the bully . Fear was not in my dictionary .
To the slightest of things , i could burst out in anger .
I was fat , white , had small eyes , or what most people called me ,
A japanese sumo wrestler .
I had no much friends .
I had some .
And those were the ones who were patient .
Tolerated with my attitude .
I respect them for that .
Because i'm not that kind of boy whereby you'd be very happy with .
I want to things to go my way . EVERYTIME .
I grew , into my teenage years .
I'm 18 now .
I've changed . I'm the opposite of who i am in the past .
Now , it's like somehow , im too very very nice .
I love to help people .
And i'd sacrifice alot just to help , be it for someone i know ,
Or for a stranger .
I might be unattractive , but i sure do admit i have a good heart .
I have good intentions , and everything i do comes with
Tremendous sincerity .
As life passed me by , i realized .
Too many people have been taking advantage of me .
Maybe , just maybe .
I have been patient for too long , or forever .
People have this so called limits .
Doesnt mean a person who has been patient everytime
Doesnt have any rage , grudges or wraths inside him/her ,
They do indeed .
And once the limit has been surpassed ,
Things will definitely turn out ugly .
" You just stirred up hell "
Its a thing or two when people ASSUME .
Not bothering to find out about what happened .
Instead just hearing the stories from one party ,
And not hear it from the other one .
Is it fair that way ?
Hell NO .
If you people wanna keep assuming , be my guess .
Assuming ,
Makes an ASS out of U and ME ~
Let me repeat ,
I have been patient .
You only need one word for me to blow up right now .
So i suggest you think THRICE right now before approaching me .
YOU
ALL
ALL OF YOU HAVE NO IDEA .
Who you're messing with .
In these 18 years of mine .
I have been patient , and im now disappointed .
Cause im just 18 , and already i wannd burst out my potential anger .
I couldve done this when im old
And just burst and have a heart attack after that and DIE .
So whoever i still am angry with .
I'LL HAUNT YOU .
You fcuking burn IN HELL .
I'll DRAG YOU .
ONCE AGAIN .
This post is posted BECAUSE I AM FCUKING ANGRY NOW .
Actually i was since yesterday .
I slept , hoping that today i will feel better .
BUT NO .
YOU HAVE NO FCUKING IDEA .
I am stirred up ,
AND OHH BOY .
You want ruckus that much RIGHT .
RUCKUS IS COMING TO YOU .
I fcuking REPEAT .
I AM FCUKING ANGRY
AND NO ONE CAN CALM THIS BEAST DOWN .
RUN ALONG IF YOU KNOW WHATS BEST FOR YOU .
" I now know that peace was never a word to say ,
Cause one day someone will distrupt that peace ,
And release a beast from within you ,
I now realize ,
That peace , can only be said ,
Once you are laid to Rest . In . Peace "
P.S : I'll be away for quite some time.
4:02 pm
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
" In solitude
a couple of dew drops
slipping down the eye lashes
carrying a burden that chest couldn't bear
full of yearning memories more indelible than ink
a salty moist page of a life that time can not ever dry
throw away the whole forsaken book in the fire
wet cold ashes. awaits a weeping phoenix
recycled tears, blur the vision
Bedims "
Ohhh so today is monday .
The first day of my school holidays .
Did it go on the good foot ?
NO !
Its boring today .
Slacked .
Went for breakin at night .
Not much things occuring in the afternoon .
Damn packed this week .
Have 2 shows on saturday .
But !
I wanna catch dance infinity !
Plus i forgot , WestG's BBQ pit is this saturday too !
Damn , i wonder if i can make it for all of em .
Which i might think that it is totally impossible .
Wait ,
Let me think again .
Ohh , yeah .
Impossible ~
Well , recently , grandfather had just been admitted to the hospital .
He has not been well for the past 2 days .
Always awake at night and claiming , something was bothering him .
Well , i was thinking , of what that "something" might be .
But heck , i dont think so .
I hope grandfather is doing well .
Praying for you to be well , and come back home soon .
Strange things have been happening .
Hmmm ..
4:24 am
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Fate FINix -
Fighting Aura Towards Eden ,
Forever Intelligent Numericals Intertwined Xerox .
So life has been nothing but plain nothingness .
School has been a bore though tomorrow shall be the last day of school .
B-boying has been the only sense of comfort , and expression whenever ,
I am feeling emotional .
Friends have been there , friends have not been there .
Brothers , have been lost in the source .
Family has been great with sense of directions .
Personal life , has been nothing but with the quote ,
"People will come , and they will eventually go"
You know , i said to myself , and i finally lighted the bulb .
The day that i will find true love , is the day when only ,
A true lady realizes how much i love the floor .
Cause right now , the most love im showing to , is the floor .
When i b-boy , i express everything to the floor .
Giving allout throwdowns on the floor whenever i am angry ,
Whenever im sad , i connect with the floor and express it ,
Name every emotion , and i give it to the floor .
LOVE the most .
The floor is my soulmate , and the floor realizes i appreciate it that much .
I treat the floor , like how i , a normal human being , a gentleman ,
Should treat a kind lady ,
Like how most of you lovebirds say , "i will always shower u with love and care"
And as for me , i too shower the floor with love and care .
I mean SERIOUSLY .
I make sure i sweat as much as i can to wet the floor ,
And prove to it and show it that i really care and love it .
I cherish the floor , and i truly appreciate it .
All of you can call me crazy ,
Thinking that i am out of my mind to love a non living thing .
But what am i supposed to do ?
Lets just say , a non living thing treats me better than a living thing .
So yeah , let me conclude that ,
The day that i will find true love , is the day when only ,
A true lady realizes how much i love the floor .
And she is able to see how much am i devoted to it .
Realizing that it is my passion that i am pursuing ,
And also at the same time , giving it all the love that i can give ..
She must not love me for the sake of loving ,
She must not love me out of sympathy ,
But she must love me because ,
She sees burning desire when it comes to proving ,
She must love me because she respects me and what i do ,
She must love me because she sees the struggles ive been through ,
And want to be part of it ,
And most importantly ,
She MUST ,
Love me because , she loves me for who i am .
And i am .............
A B-boy .
Labels: find me, I am invisible, ohh invisible lady
4:53 pm
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
Faith keeps me alive-
for it is engraved in my veins,
flowing into this heart of mine.
Worries filtered, dissipating,
no restrictive stones of doubt.
Platelets clot pessimism,
as optimism breaks through
the permeable membrane
concealing my heart,
feelings revealed from within.
Therapeutic words twirl
coated in intimacy
securing my soul.
Protective and supportive
fibers constructed of love...
embrace me.
Hope will forever live on.
2:59 am
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Hey world , and all thats living and non-living ~
So well recent days have been mundane ,
Only just one thing making me happy and makes
Me feel the static just by one thought =)
School has been boring .
I have AIT Excel test this friday .
And next week AIT Access test .
What a bummer -___-
But my friends have been so chaotic ! Haha .
My group of friends in school are the best !
And yes , Nazz is currently having his ECSTACY happiness period .
LOL . Bro , cherish what your supposed to cherish alright ?
You know what i mean , haha ! =D
My cut on my forehead is slowly healing , alhamdullilah .
But my thumb and knees arent healing that fast .
And its hard for me to practise my bboying .
But fcuk it , haha , no pain no gain .
Tough situations dont last , tough people do !!
My breaking form has changed .
No more abstract .
Maybe just having the feel of being me , and nothing else .
Original flava ~
Thats what i'll stick to .
Well i have nothing else that i can remember to update . Haha .
I'll update again soon enough .
Water lilies keep floating on the surface of my pond of thoughts ~
=)
Peace On Earth !
Originality Never Ends !
Labels: and they always go, everyone, people come
3:36 am
