Thursday, September 03, 2009
When i was young ,
Mama told me that as i grow up ,
I will learn that life is unfair , and that life is full of negativity in stored .
And now i look up upon the clouds ,
Mama was right .
Mama told me that as i grow up ,
I will learn the further meaning of love ,
And now i look upon my broken heart ,
Mama was right .
Mama told me that as i grow up ,
I will learn that my shoulders carry burden of hardship to achieve ,
And now i look upon my certificates , qualification and passion ,
Mama was right .
Mama told me that as i grow up ,
I will miss my childhood days and wish that i never grew up ,
And now i look through my childhood pictures ,
Mama was definitely right .
Mama once make me agree ,
That no matter what , the only woman i will trust is only her .
And now i look back ,
I regretted trusting another .
Mama taught me alot of things when i was young .
Mama used to have no time with me when i was a baby .
Mama was a busy woman , so was papa .
My relatives had to take care of me most of the time .
Especially grandma and grandpa .
Though i was small .
I learnt something ,
Sometimes , you dont need your parents to learn how to crawl .
Each and everyone of my family played a part on teaching me about life .
And i appreciate every lesson .
The only thing i regret was being such a rascal when i was young .
Im always the bad one .
So naughty and ignorant .
And as i grew up , i started to be rebellious , violent .
Not knowing that the word care existed .
My home was like a hotel .
Families became strangers .
Freedom was at its best .
Seemed that i had the motto ,
" Fuck the world ! Fuck any consequences ! "
Till one day , a miracle .
The dawn of a new day .
The subuh prayer .
I had fall into a deep abyss in my mind .
Flashbacks , of wrong doings ,
Sounds of voice , slowly manipulating my mind to change and do good .
Minutes later , there i was .
Not realising that i had laid down on the kiblat .
From that moment onwards .
I was a changed boy .
And now , i look at myself .
A guy with passion of b-boying .
A guy with a great need and love to help people .
A guy who loves the world and wants to spread peace .
A guy who tries his best to pursue anything to get what he wants .
A guy who has dreams and fantasies and wishes they come true .
A guy who faces downfalls instead of upstream success .
A guy whose life now is reversed .
There is more than meets the eye .
I have more to say , but why should i ? No one cares .
I am always helping people .
But when they dont need help .
They run away , i am not remembered ,
I am nothing , i am just a ball .
Being kicked around .
I may not be goodlooking or whatever .
But if you can see through me ,
You'll understand ,
I have that heart of gold , i mean good , not bad .
Sometimes i wish , i was transparent .
I already am . I guess .
Mama taught me alot of things ,
Grandpa showed me adventure and not to fear things ,
Grandma showed me the beautiful side of life ,
Little sister taught me to be patient ,
Dad didnt taught me much ,
But what he did taught me was ,
" Fuck the negativity
Live like u rule the world
Have fun like theres no one seeing you
Get what u want
Enjoy LIFE
You got one life ,
LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST
Nothing can stop you , BUT
the next stop that you might never know you'll face
is DEATH "
Live like u rule the world
Have fun like theres no one seeing you
Get what u want
Enjoy LIFE
You got one life ,
LIVE IT TO THE FULLEST
Nothing can stop you , BUT
the next stop that you might never know you'll face
is DEATH "
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