Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Time Is Of The Essence ,
But Instead , It Leads To A Disappearance .
Wednesday , 4th February 2009 .
Approximately 4.35 a.m .
Grandma Had Passed Away .
It Was Shocking News , And I Had To Wake Up
With The Sounds Of Cries In The Air .
Before That Tragic Occurance , Grandma Has Not Been
Sleeping , Instead , Shes Been Asking For Help ,
Shouting , That Her Chest Was In Pain .
There Was Nothing Further We Could Do ,
Even The Doctor Gave Meds But They Were Of No Use .
From 10 p.m on 3rd February , Grandma Was Shouting For Help ,
Till 4.35 a.m 4th February , She Was In Silence .
As I Had Difficulty Sleeping Due To My Worries For Her ,
I Decided To Go Down And See If She Was Already Okay .
So , When I Saw Her , I Thought That She Was Asleep .
I Held Her Hand , I Felt Something Was Not Right .
I Kissed Her Forehead , And Went Back Upstairs With A Weird Feeling .
I Planned Not To Sleep , But Eventually My Eyes Turned In .
6 a.m Sharp , I Was Awakened By The Sounds Of Cries .
Mom , Lil Sis , Grandpa , All Downstairs Crying .
I Was Shocked . "IMPOSSIBLE!"
"This Can't Be , How Can I Not Realize?"
I Felt The Guilt , I Felt The Heartache Releasing Tensions To My Whole Body .
I Was Sad And Disappointed , I Didnt Get To Ask For Forgiveness . Haiz .
You See , Among All My Cousins , In The Past ,
I Was The Most Mischievious And Grandma Had A Hard Time Taking Care Of Me .
A VERY Hard Time Indeed .
I Admit That , That Was In The Past , And I Was A Small Kid ,
Not Knowing Anything . But Somehow ,
How I Wished I Was Well Behaved Just Like My Other Cousins .
Im Sorry Grandma , I Really Am Sorry . ='/
By 9 a.m Plus , My Home Started To Be Filled With My Relatives .
Grandpa Said He Wanted The Burial To Be Done After Zohor .
And Yeah , Dad Called For A Doctor To Receive A Death Cert .
After Doing All The Necessaries , We All Lifted Grandma To The Casket Van .
First Stop Was To Assyakirin , To Pray For Her .
After Praying , We All Headed To Pusara Aman , The New Cemetery .
Me , Cousin Kiki , Abang Fird , And My Dad Carried Her Down To The Grave .
That Was The Most Heartbreaking Moment For Me ,
My Emotions Seem To Overcome Me .
Haiz , Im Sorry , I Have To Stop Here . =(
Well , This Will Take A Very Long Time For Me .
To Get Over This Situation .
A Fake Smile Always Helps In These Kinds Of Situations , Hehs .
And My Friends , Dont Need To Worry That Much .
Im Fine .
Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku ,
Ku Niat Kan Doa Al-Fatihah Ini Kepada Nenekku ,
Napsiah Binte Lisut .
*Al-Fatihah*
Hmm , School Has Been Normal .
And Wow , Valentine's Day Is Nearing ?
The Hitch Here Wishes Every Lovebirds
" A HAPPY VALENTINES DAY "
Enjoy The Day Filled With Romantic Atmospheres My Friends . =)
Stay Happy And Smile Always !
As For Me , I Wish To Go Out Alone ,
And Shop For New Gear ?
My Break Comp Is Next Week , And I Have To Find Fresh Gears .
Well , I'll Update Soon , Hmm .
Take Care , Diablog .
_ Fate Phoenix The RareGrenade `
(Time Will Tell,Time Will Heal)
2:34 am
