Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Jobayoh !
Greetings .
Sorry Ive Not Been Updating .
Been Real Busy ,
And I Mean REAL Busy .
Da Shocase 6 Bboy Comp Was Great .
Us RSC Won 4th .
Im A Bit Disappointed With Myself Cause I Know
I Wouldve Done Far Better If It Was Not For
My Injured Fingers From The First Round Of The Comp .
But Its Alright , I Guess It Just Wasnt My Day .
Im Still Proud Of Us ! Especially My Bros ISNAIDI And ZYM !
U Guys Did Fantastic , Represented To The Fullest !
And Congrats To Bakau Rockers For 3rd Placing ,
2nd Placing Goes To Killa Move Crew ,
And First Place , Enemy Ground .
All Of You Guys Were Dope And Fresh .
Mad Love , And Respect .
As For Myself , Ive Got To Adapt With Injuries .
And I Must Train Harder ,
Push Myself To The Limit ,
Because I Know My Inner Selves Are Just Waiting ,
Waiting To Be Released .
Practise Is All I Have To Do .
Next Up , RF Jam .
Now That Is An Event That I Cant Wait For .
Gonna Be Prepared !
So Now , Moving On , LIFE .
I Dont Really Know What Is Wrong With Me Actually .
Seriously Im Numb In The Third Eye .
School Has Been Smooth , Exam Coming In March .
Family , Ouuh , I Just Love Them ,
And I Miss My Grandma =/ ,
Friends , Well , Always Make Me Smile And There For Me .
Personal Things ? Hmmm .
Well I Guess This Is The Thing Thats Makin Me Numb .
Somehow I Feel At Times , Somethings Missing .
Well , Can Ignore That , Just As I Said .
My Personal Life = Help .
So Yeah , This Is All I Guess .
Will Update Soon Enough .
Ouuh Yeah , I Am In Love With Blogsong .
I Would Melt If A Girl Would Sing That To Me !
Hahaha ! WTH .
Peace .
_ Fate Phoenix The RareGrenade `
(wow,what can it be.or,what would it be,fate?)
12:52 am
Saturday, February 14, 2009
"The Valentine Crime ," By Unmei Kazama .
Winter obscures the purity of white , as it has always been pure .
Autumn obscures false lush evergreenies , as it has always been earthed .
Summer obscures vibrant yellow , as it has always been the glimpse of hope .
Spring , has always been obscured , as it is the beginning of the end .
If Singapore were to be in a region of temperate and polar ,
Love will be defined , in a different , valentine ..
Suerte , was always on the wrong foot ,
When it comes to the essential element ,
He always find himself rock bottom and hopeless .
For in many situations , no matter how much he was used ,
And no matter how many girls may ditch him ,
He still is thankful and always be strong ,
Cause he knows , what it exactly feels to be in that kind of state .
Being experienced in most of the likely scenarios of a relationship ,
He feels that he had analyzed what exactly , the essential element might be .
And therefore , he had a different approach .
He had another life equation ,
"Yours = Love , Mine = Help "
Make a world a better place , stop the evil who had brought disgrace .
One time , he met another moment .
Where he knew , if he took a step , it might be a mistake .
Why are complications not with captions ?
Are they fictions ? Or are they just drafted dictations ?
If love was a sin , then i make it my deed .
The globe seeks help , i sacrifice my own personal need .
There came a day , he felt his own guilt .
Not being able to soul out , even if it was very apparent .
He came to a split second decision ,
Though it wasnt a choice ,
He virtually communicated through paragraphs of his own emotions .
And awaited a response .
It was as though he was reflected from a mirror .
But , "he" proved "himself" , wrong .
-"Would you be my date?"
"But what about your unforgotten memory of him?"
-"I have to move on , i just cant stand still here and do nothing"
"Alright then , and are you sure about this date thingy?"
No response to that question was received .
Suerte , was cooped up in a box of confusion .
Kidnapped , and unable to free from the box .
Not in full knowledgeable form , he sit still , helplessly , for weeks ,
Months ..
And during the days , its either "it" pops out , or it doesnt .
Randomly , and seldom .
Suerte , still in a state of complication .
Is this a toyment of another soul ?
Is this just another typical situation in love ?
AM I , being , played for , another time ?
History , does repeats itself .
You say your tellin the truth , and not keepin a lie ,
But its the opposite , look what it caused you now ,
A White Lie .
You still arent over him , dont deny .
If you still arent satisfied ,
Dont make me look bad , i just flow the river ,
Come back with full force , just , TRY .
But everytime you come back ,
You communicate as if we're both an item ?
Brings me back to the question that you didnt answer ,
If you wanted a fraction , too bad for me ,
You didnt knew how to divide em .
Maybe you're still young , the mind of curiousity ,
I dont blame no one , no one ,
Except for myself , for being so foolish to be in an essential element .
I knew it all along , knew that i'll never succeed .
I can strive for other things , but not , the essential , element .
Therefore , do not thank me , for all that we're through .
I thank you , for making all the occurances ,
A crystal clear false virtue .
Suerte Vida Loca ,
The Helpman , still pursues in being a useful help at its best .
Suerte Vida Loca ,
The solution , to concentrate your false chemical reactions .
Suerte Vida Loca ,
Was depressed , many situations arised and came to him all in one shot .
What was he suppose to do ? Remain calm , and resolve it properly .
He lost one of his Family members .
The time eventually came , everyone had to accept it .
Since then , he had been dreaming ,
He had been hearing voices ,
Everything doesnt seem to be the same .
It was very unusual and different .
As he also heard , piano sounds in a weird dimensional background .
Was it a message from the deceased ?
A fated , quest , a fated , search for a particular person ?
Suerte , caught up in another puzzling situation .
And now , he realized .
He had to agree to what fate has brought him .
He now is in a journey ,
The Quest ,
" The Quest For A Pianist "
End Of Chapter One .
4:16 pm
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Time Is Of The Essence ,
But Instead , It Leads To A Disappearance .
Wednesday , 4th February 2009 .
Approximately 4.35 a.m .
Grandma Had Passed Away .
It Was Shocking News , And I Had To Wake Up
With The Sounds Of Cries In The Air .
Before That Tragic Occurance , Grandma Has Not Been
Sleeping , Instead , Shes Been Asking For Help ,
Shouting , That Her Chest Was In Pain .
There Was Nothing Further We Could Do ,
Even The Doctor Gave Meds But They Were Of No Use .
From 10 p.m on 3rd February , Grandma Was Shouting For Help ,
Till 4.35 a.m 4th February , She Was In Silence .
As I Had Difficulty Sleeping Due To My Worries For Her ,
I Decided To Go Down And See If She Was Already Okay .
So , When I Saw Her , I Thought That She Was Asleep .
I Held Her Hand , I Felt Something Was Not Right .
I Kissed Her Forehead , And Went Back Upstairs With A Weird Feeling .
I Planned Not To Sleep , But Eventually My Eyes Turned In .
6 a.m Sharp , I Was Awakened By The Sounds Of Cries .
Mom , Lil Sis , Grandpa , All Downstairs Crying .
I Was Shocked . "IMPOSSIBLE!"
"This Can't Be , How Can I Not Realize?"
I Felt The Guilt , I Felt The Heartache Releasing Tensions To My Whole Body .
I Was Sad And Disappointed , I Didnt Get To Ask For Forgiveness . Haiz .
You See , Among All My Cousins , In The Past ,
I Was The Most Mischievious And Grandma Had A Hard Time Taking Care Of Me .
A VERY Hard Time Indeed .
I Admit That , That Was In The Past , And I Was A Small Kid ,
Not Knowing Anything . But Somehow ,
How I Wished I Was Well Behaved Just Like My Other Cousins .
Im Sorry Grandma , I Really Am Sorry . ='/
By 9 a.m Plus , My Home Started To Be Filled With My Relatives .
Grandpa Said He Wanted The Burial To Be Done After Zohor .
And Yeah , Dad Called For A Doctor To Receive A Death Cert .
After Doing All The Necessaries , We All Lifted Grandma To The Casket Van .
First Stop Was To Assyakirin , To Pray For Her .
After Praying , We All Headed To Pusara Aman , The New Cemetery .
Me , Cousin Kiki , Abang Fird , And My Dad Carried Her Down To The Grave .
That Was The Most Heartbreaking Moment For Me ,
My Emotions Seem To Overcome Me .
Haiz , Im Sorry , I Have To Stop Here . =(
Well , This Will Take A Very Long Time For Me .
To Get Over This Situation .
A Fake Smile Always Helps In These Kinds Of Situations , Hehs .
And My Friends , Dont Need To Worry That Much .
Im Fine .
Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku ,
Ku Niat Kan Doa Al-Fatihah Ini Kepada Nenekku ,
Napsiah Binte Lisut .
*Al-Fatihah*
Hmm , School Has Been Normal .
And Wow , Valentine's Day Is Nearing ?
The Hitch Here Wishes Every Lovebirds
" A HAPPY VALENTINES DAY "
Enjoy The Day Filled With Romantic Atmospheres My Friends . =)
Stay Happy And Smile Always !
As For Me , I Wish To Go Out Alone ,
And Shop For New Gear ?
My Break Comp Is Next Week , And I Have To Find Fresh Gears .
Well , I'll Update Soon , Hmm .
Take Care , Diablog .
_ Fate Phoenix The RareGrenade `
(Time Will Tell,Time Will Heal)
2:34 am
